Depression

Like I had said. A weird depression has filled me and it has made me disinterested in a lot of things. I just don't feel like doing much of anything... Including eating. Its getting bad, and I need to snap myself out of it.

Cleaning my house has helped, but there is just still so much anxiety about the future that has held me back as of late.

I need a reason to be motivated again. But its been hard. I talked to my boyfriend about things and he really helped me. But I have been feeling so bad.

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