Magic Dog

I am afraid of the disappointment I am going to cause when I abandon my efforts on Machina and Magic second edition to work on a video game. I am afraid of all the people I am going to upset. I am not quitting second edition, but it is being shelved for a while, and I hate that I am doing that. But video games pay more... And I want to be doing a job that I love that will pay.

Like I had said. A weird depression has filled me and it has made me disinterested in a lot of things. I just don't feel like doing much of anything... Including eating. Its getting bad, and I need to snap myself out of it. Cleaning my house has helped, but there is just still so much anxiety about the future that has held me back as of late. I need a reason to be motivated again. But its been hard. I talked to my boyfriend about things and he really helped me. But I have been feeling so bad.

I have been very blessed to have a lot of friends in my life. Many great and wonderful friends. I sometimes feel inadequate to be their friends, since many of them do for me, and I am unable to do in return. But I am very blessed to have them all the same.

Helloche! My name is Daleo Eaton and I am the founder and creative lead for Magic Dog Games. I'm standing right next to the birthplace of UNO®, one of America's treasured card games. I would consider myself furry trash from Cincinnati, Ohio. I created Second Haven back in the day, which was Ohio's first organized furry community before I let it go defunct in 2012 (and the community had grown greater than I could handle at the time.) I am bisexual, a baker, a musician, an artist, and possibly a 3D sculpter in the future. My favorite food is Chili Cheese Fries and from Cincinnati that means Skyline . I am the creator of Machina and Magic the tabletop roleplaying game. *** When I was growing up, I wanted to be a video game composer. I promised myself I would make a full-scale RPG soundtrack; and well, that dream honestly hasn't changed. But in the process of achieving my goal, I fell down the rabbit-hole of game design, and learned fairly quickly that I didn...

I feel sick to my stomach and have a headache. I hope this doesn't become problematic. I wanted to work on game stuff today. In the mean time... check this out. Yup... it doesn't mean much, but this is kinda how my palm trees look like in unity. Strange. Directional light has a strong impact on how things look. Might play around with lighting and shadows later.

I pay 600$ a month to live in a pretty spacious 2 bedroom apartment. I converted my second bedroom into an office. And while most people would say... "That's great!" or... "You're pretty privileged" Some people are going to ask... "What's wrong with it?" And those some people would be right for asking. First off. Its not a good neighborhood. I live next to a lot more crime than I used to. Second off, my landlord, despite being a good friend, is well... A piece of work. And he wouldn't disagree with me. So even if he saw this he probably wouldn't be mad. This place was unlivable when I moved in, and had to deal with a lot of problems from plumbing issues to ungrounded plugs to a lack of air conditioning. It had a non-functioning oven and refrigerator. Windows didn't have any way to keep out the sun (or in the heat), and I am still dealing with a balcony door that just won't close right and has a broken window pane that I tapped u...

     As you can see, I have been working on some low-poly 3D modeling. The pictures shown are of a tileset that I drew, and put into a 3D modeling program called "Crocotile 3D"      My review of Crocotile real quick. YOU WILL HATE THE PROGRAM , until you go into the options and fix some settings. There are a lot of unintuitive things about the program that the options will remedy, but because the program itself doesn't have those features turned on standard, I think its a very bad first move and will turn people away from the program itself. But over all, its intuitive enough for what I need, so I am going to use it. And so far... I am liking it!      If I get brave enough in the future, we will consider going to blender and seeing what's up. Consider this post my first real Dev Update.  

My friends have also been depressed or stressed in one way or another but we help each other out the best we can. My friend Davie is the best. Spent the day talking story with my brother Steve. We might start working on the video game. We shall see. Picture above is skyline chili. Just love it.

Something about being 35 hit me in a really weird way that I can't explain. A sort of depression washed over me and ever since Aug 9th, my birthday, I haven't been able to shake it. Its been eating at my soul. Something needs to change. But before I get all depresso-expresso on you, let me tell you the one amazing thing that happened to me this year. I met Mark Rein•Hagen of W̶h̶i̶t̶e̶w̶o̶l̶f̶ ̶P̶u̶b̶l̶i̶s̶h̶i̶n̶g̶ Lostlorn Games. We talked... A lot, hours. And also LARPed, and had LaRosa's (Cincinnati Pizza Favorite) together. It was a fun time at the January Ice & Dice Gaming Convention.  But he called me something... In passing that changed my world and defeated every ounce of my Imposter Syndrome. He called me a professional. He called me, a professional! Of course, that doesn't really mean anything. He had no idea what I had done other than make a 475 page tabletop game called Machina and Magic. He never played it, nor would he ever play it because he doesn...

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