Depression, Game Design, Destiny

Long story short. I am pretty neurodivergent.

It prevents me from doing normal things I need to do. I don't take care of my health, I don't take care of my car. I need to take care of my room and my office. And I only make enough money in this rapidly increasing economy to barely survive.

I need to motivate myself into doing more commissions and more art for money. I need to motivate myself into taking care of my car. But it is hard. Harder than it has any right to be. And I don't understand why.

I don't know why any of this is so damn difficult. There is no reason for it to be difficult like this. It just is. Why am I so broken?

Distractions are also a dime a dozen. Social media, and the News keeps me from enjoying life or doing what need to be done  i have a lot great projects that need my attention. But my phone demands more. Going to have to start limiting my phone time for real.

I do make it worth my time by watching educational stuff a lot of times, as well as game design stuff, but its not worth nearly as much as action. It is time to take action.

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