Magic Dog

We shall see how far I take things. I don't know. I have been exhausted. Trying to do some weight loss and learn some animating.

Long story short. I am pretty neurodivergent. It prevents me from doing normal things I need to do. I don't take care of my health, I don't take care of my car. I need to take care of my room and my office. And I only make enough money in this rapidly increasing economy to barely survive. I need to motivate myself into doing more commissions and more art for money. I need to motivate myself into taking care of my car. But it is hard. Harder than it has any right to be. And I don't understand why. I don't know why any of this is so damn difficult. There is no reason for it to be difficult like this. It just is. Why am I so broken? Distractions are also a dime a dozen. Social media, and the News keeps me from enjoying life or doing what need to be done  i have a lot great projects that need my attention. But my phone demands more. Going to have to start limiting my phone time for real. I do make it worth my time by watching educational stuff a lot of times, as well as gam...

Most days it's hard to wake up. For starts. I sleep on an air mattress, one that has finally popped and has given me the worst night sleep ever. I am in the transition between mattresses since the move out from my old place. My old Mattress was from ye old college days. But today I might be on a quest to fix this air mattress until I get the money saved up for a great mattress. Sure, I could get a El Cheapo crap mattress, but I won't be able to do anything with the crap mattress once I finally get my GOOD mattress. But besides the mattress situation. I admin a lot of different groups. So when I wake up, I check every chat and do my duty. After that, I go to my social medias, starting with Bluesky, but then I end up on the dreaded Facebook. Facebook sucks. I hate Facebook. All it ever does is enrage me. All it ever does is feed me low quality content and advertisements. I am better than this. Needless to say, my morning routine consumes an entire hour or two from my life every ...

I moved out... I officially moved to a new place, January 1st. I moved in with a friend of mine. Turns out my old place was literally making me sick, from black mold, sewage, smoke, other drug fumes, and just general terrible things. The fallout between me and my landlord was horrible, tragic, and I lost a friend over it. Not only that but I lost a creative connection too. This should have never happened. The apartment was terrible. My new living situation is a great improvement. I am actually saving some money and I have more time to work on game stuff. Also, the office is greatly improved but my personal space is not. I am also not a huge fan of all the yelling between roommates, not directed at me, but over petty shit. It's annoying. And as someone who works in a bakery during the night time. I need my day time hours to not be so loud. But also... I am breathing! Isn't that wild? Turns out I was struggling to breathe most of my time at the old apartment (I wonder why). Cough...

I cannot blame my brother for wanting to play some Baldur's Gate III and I cannot be mad at my brother for buying me Wargroove 2. But damn... all these distractions in my life will keep me from the game. I may have to cut out some more time for game stuff. With me thinking about the game more, I feel that having another artist would do some amazing good. I just need to find one I can trust.