Magic Dog

We shall see how far I take things. I don't know. I have been exhausted. Trying to do some weight loss and learn some animating.

Long story short. I am pretty neurodivergent. It prevents me from doing normal things I need to do. I don't take care of my health, I don't take care of my car. I need to take care of my room and my office. And I only make enough money in this rapidly increasing economy to barely survive. I need to motivate myself into doing more commissions and more art for money. I need to motivate myself into taking care of my car. But it is hard. Harder than it has any right to be. And I don't understand why. I don't know why any of this is so damn difficult. There is no reason for it to be difficult like this. It just is. Why am I so broken? Distractions are also a dime a dozen. Social media, and the News keeps me from enjoying life or doing what need to be done  i have a lot great projects that need my attention. But my phone demands more. Going to have to start limiting my phone time for real. I do make it worth my time by watching educational stuff a lot of times, as well as gam...

My Brother sidewinded me with another game idea. It's frustrating to say the least. I say "frustrating", but I enjoy every minute of game design so I wasn't mad til after the fact. The problem is, we are a two man team, with the possibility to expand to a 4 man team. We only have so much ability between the two of us. We have to choose a realistic goal. But I also want to make a game that I want to play. And we have come to a disagreement. I really enjoyed the idea of our original game idea, but I fear my brother might not feel comfortable doing it or may have hit some snags that discouraged him. I am unsure. He is smart and has great analytical abilities. He will come up with something. But for now. All of my game design energy is expended and put on hold until we have a destination.

Most days it's hard to wake up. For starts. I sleep on an air mattress, one that has finally popped and has given me the worst night sleep ever. I am in the transition between mattresses since the move out from my old place. My old Mattress was from ye old college days. But today I might be on a quest to fix this air mattress until I get the money saved up for a great mattress. Sure, I could get a El Cheapo crap mattress, but I won't be able to do anything with the crap mattress once I finally get my GOOD mattress. But besides the mattress situation. I admin a lot of different groups. So when I wake up, I check every chat and do my duty. After that, I go to my social medias, starting with Bluesky, but then I end up on the dreaded Facebook. Facebook sucks. I hate Facebook. All it ever does is enrage me. All it ever does is feed me low quality content and advertisements. I am better than this. Needless to say, my morning routine consumes an entire hour or two from my life every ...

I've done large projects before. I built a fursuit, created the game Rocket Brigade: https://www.rocketbrigade.com , and another being the creation of Machina and Magic:  https://www.drivethrurpg.com/en/product/367981/machina-and-magic-core-rulebook . One of the biggest tips I can give is "stab in the dark". It means take action even if you cannot see what you are hitting. If you get purchase, then try to strike again in the same place. You don't know where you are aiming when a project gets so big. The size of you project will blind you. So you must try to attempt aiming in correct directions until you finally do. This can be an annoying process, but if you frame it as "practice" or "commiting something to memory" then it is never wasted work. Reminder that motivation feeds off itself. If you are able to make motivation happen, you can keep things rolling. Part of every battle is keeping motivation afloat. The more motivation you have, the more s...

     I am staying positive. I am seeking others who are making games so I can remain positive and give them motivation.      Little fun fact. If you spitball motivation with other people and cause praise loops, you can feed that dopamine in your brain because you are getting good feedback from people who actually know what they are doing.      You gotta get others involved in your projects. People gotta see what you are doing.